Friday, May 27, 2011

The Most Amazing Sound...

This morning I went to the Dr.
I've had this appointment scheduled for weeks and I have been pretty anxious about it. It was one of those situations where it was either going to be really good news, or really bad news. Probably a very small chance of bad news, but the worrier in me was obsessing over that tiny percentage. I wanted Z to come with me, but his work scheduled him even though he requested off... and I panicked wondering how i would make it through without my strong, calm husband by my side.
I asked my mom to come with me, just in case-- I didn't want to be alone.
I got there and did the normal thing--you know, answer a billion personal, prying, and embarrassing questions. Then the doctor came in, squirted goop on my tummy and pressed a little device to my abdomen. There were a few quiet, tense seconds of silence... and then! The most amazing sound in the whole world: A quick, but strong and healthy fetal heartbeat. But not any heartbeat-- the heartbeat of MY baby. The one growing inside of ME.
I beamed. And then my eyes got all misty and a tear may have slipped out. It was the most amazing thing I've ever heard... like a little train chugging away... or kinda like a washing machine... only, amazing. haha. It's beautiful and indescribable.
My fear and anxiety immediately were gone. Everyone in the room was smiling. Everything is right and perfect and our little baby is healthy and strong and doing just what he should be: growing and growing until December when we will finally get to meet Baby P for the first time.
I already love my little Baby P more than I can even stand. Being a parent is going to be such a trip. :)

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Happy Anniversary

You can read about The Perfect Day if you want... Part I and Part II

May 22, 2010

May 22, 2011

It's been a good year. Had it's ups and downs and moments when I was afraid my husband wouldn't make it through meal time becuase I was going to choke him if he made one more comment about me trying to poison him with vegetables on his plate... but for the most part good. At the same time, I think we have both learned a lot about ourselves and each other in this past year and we have stretched and grown because of it. We are happy. And very much in love. :)
And...  right now we are hopeful and excited about the future and the wonderful things year #2 will bring to our lives... (and of course many more years after that!)
Happy Anniversary to my Hubs! Love you so much!

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

In Defense of 'The Bandwagon'

Sometimes 'because everyone else is' turns out to be a really lousy reason to do something. But when you find yourself doing the same thing as everyone else at the same time as everyone else (lets just give you the benefit of the doubt and say you had your own plans and reasons for it--) well it turns out sometimes the bandwagon can be a comfortable and supportive place to carry those plans out...
I'm just saying... sometimes deciding NOT to march to your own beat can be helpful.
Am I making sense or just mashing too many metaphors into a confusing porridge of my own musings and vagueness?

Wednesday, May 11, 2011


My work is a little crazy. Crazy people who bring their crazy kids and crazy dogs to work with them.
Anyway I am a bit spacey and having trouble staying focused on my work today anyway.
And then there was just an overly dramatic dog fight, and the dogs were crying and people were yelling and trying to tear them apart and now person A is mad at person B becuase their dog A hurt dog B but person A thinks that dog A is innocent and dog B was the one that attacked. And person C is all upset becuase what if dog A or B goes after children C when they are here...
And I think that the whole issue could be resolved quite easily.
Leave your kids and dogs at home. This is an office. None of them have any place here. Let's get back to work.