Monday, April 4, 2011

Moving on...

Have you ever been stuck in the waiting game...? Like there is something just... just within your reach but you are waiting for this to begin, or that to end. Or this person to make a decision, and that situation to resolve. Just one more week, and we'll know. Okay, just a few more days and we'll know for sure. Okay, these results are not clear, wait another week, and we'll try again. Give us more time, and we'll make a definite decision...
I feel like I am always a week away from greatness. A week away from knowledge. A week away from that next step. A week away from security. Why do these weeks never end? Why am I always just a week away, by the end of next week?
I've been waiting 'a week' for the answer for the past couple months. I am over the waiting game. I can't keep holding my breath (I might pass out...). How does one exist in a constant state of anticipation, and still live their life?  I don't want to miss out on what's happening now in anticipation for what will happen next... but how do I become comfortable and content living in the present when so much is waiting to be determined?
Yikes.

1 comment:

XOXO Dr. Kay Elizabeth said...

For some strange reason I simply agree with you and can relate. I myself am in the waiting game right now and I feel like my life is at a stand still. I don't even know how to fully live it if I am always waiting for this big breakthrough to happen that never seems to come.